I joined the Ulster Volunteer Force (UVF) when I was a lad. I joined because I wanted to avenge the death of my friend’s father, who had been shot dead by Republicans. I remember going to the funeral and seeing his young daughter. She had been shot in the legs screaming for her daddy. I thought my father would be next, and at the age of 14 I vowed that if I ever had the opportunity to retaliate, I would. My experience is that people easily turn to violence when their voices aren’t being heard, or when they feel under threat. It’s a human response to pain and hurt.
So, when I was 17, I walked into the home of man I didn’t know and shot him dead. I had asked to do it.
I live with the consequences of my actions every day. I know what I have lost in terms of inner peace. If I were able to live that moment again, I know I would do things differently. But I don’t think I have a right to ask for forgiveness. It only adds insult to injury, and places yet another burden upon relatives and family members. In most cases, asking for forgiveness is more about the needs of the perpetrator than the needs of the victim, or of the family who have lost a loved one.
And some people can’t forgive. But that doesn’t mean they’re weak, or that they’ll be consumed by bitterness or anger. I’ve met people who haven’t been able to forgive, but who haven’t allowed the event to paralyse them. It just means that as human beings they’ve been hurt beyond repair. Who are we to say they should forgive?
缺乏寬恕的救贖，抱著遺憾的靈魂無法安息，之後 Little 生活在一片空白之中，終於他鼓起勇氣主動連絡Griffen，約好兩人私下見面。Griffen在妻子的反對下還是接受了這個邀約。第三場景重點在這個無人的空屋，Griffen早已等在裡面，當Little踏入這破屋，並沒發現人跡，但他已能感覺到劍拔弩張的氣氛。終於復仇的刀刃揮來......
